I did AFF years ago in San Diego. Really wasn’t apprehensive at all going thru ground training. It wasn’t until climbing out on the first flight is when I started to get nervous big time. Everyone was getting pumped up and joking around while my stomach started to knot up the higher we went. Then, I’m first to jump and once I stood in that door way looking down and the cold air hit me in the face, I seriously almost called “game over man!” One of my instructors was a Navy SEAL though, so I thought, this guy is going to think I’m a total wuss if I don’t jump. Against my better judgment, I stepped out into a quiet abyss that quickly turned into a runaway freight train. They kept giving me the sign to relax but I had no idea what they were referring to. Apparently my fists were clinched and due to my non existent arch, I started to porpoise. Unlike a lot of first AFFs, I didn’t have to be told twice to pull the cord. But, due to my brain fog, I chucked my training cord and had to pay $10 for a new one.
The opening was a bit more violent than I imagined and got a few good bruises on my legs. I looked up at the canopy, thanked God and said I’m never doing this again. Once under canopy, the trainer on the ground established comms in my headset and basically having me fly a traffic pattern. Unfortunately, due to my light weight, a big training canopy and winds, I wasn’t going to make it to the “X.” Last I heard in my headset was “dude, you’re not going to reach the DZ and you’re going to disappear behind the hill so you’re going to have to flare on your own!” About 100 yards shy of the DZ and 10 ft too high I flared, hit hard and fell back on my butt.
I never would have finished the remaining 6 jumps but since I had already paid for the program with no refunds, I had to go back. Took 2 months to get the courage but I did. After a couple more jumps, the porpoising went away and I was having a blast. Back flips, 360 degree turns, tracking etc. Got signed off student status but immediately incurred some financial problems and never jumped again. Coolest thing I’ve ever done in my life though. I always tell people, it’s something that you really can’t put into words and have to do at least once in life.