I fully understand the desires you express above, but I suggest there is a different point of view.
I always viewed my job as a professional pilot not as an exciting adventure in aviating, but as an exercise in staying near the center of the envelope. My challenge to myself when I was flying freight at night was not to see how far I could push things, but rather to make the approach smooth - after all someday I was going to have pax, I challenged myself to always roll onto final on the VASI no matter the nature of the approach, my challenge was not how different I could make every flight, but rather how similar. I think if you develop some stabilized approach criteria and work hard to always meet them, no matter what ATC does to you, then you can be satisfied with your approach. Hot dogging it, which is what you seem to be doing, may be exciting but it is not a) what you are paid to do, b) safe or c) professional. I am not trying to make you wrong on this, obviously one can fly that way for hundreds of hours, but I do believe, that if you concentrate your energies on developing the skills that I suggest, that you will be a much more attractive candidate for an airline, you will minimize the possibility of having an incident or accident, and you can find just as much satisfaction in a job well done as being an envelope pusher.
