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I think you've got a good attitude about it. (See what I did there? Attitude... Awe cmon it's not that bad of a joke...)
I can't tell what altitude AGL you were at when it started but if your CFI had the altitude and knew you were in something rated for spins in the Utility category and that you were in the Utility envelope, I think he could have let that progress to what was seen in the second video and had *you* recover it.
He also knows you better than I and had to balance whether it would completely trash your confidence or scare you. No good reason to scare anybody on purpose. It's about teaching. And you appear to have gotten the lesson and the experience.
Definitely find time and money and do some spin training. It can only make you better as a pilot, not worse. You'll probably enjoy the heck out of it and it'll remove the fear and replace it with knowledge and a deep sense of caution and respect for them.
Epic joke! We have the same sense of humor. My CFI suggested spin training afterward, but I don't know what airplane we would do it in, not sure if the 152 is certified. This was my mock checkride, so we were focused on that, and I'm not sure if we had sufficient altitude, and like you said, he was probably
balancing whether it would completely trash my confidence or scare me, so that's probably why he recovered it for me. We text regularly, and after he read this blog post he told me he felt really bad for me right after it happened. He could tell I was pretty upset with myself.
I didn't include it in the blog because I don't want to talk about money publicly (POA is fine, though hahah), but most of why I was so upset was that I knew my flying money had run out. I had enough for the mock checkride and the checkride and that was it for a while (post-wedding-honeymoon broke man blues). So when it happened, I knew that he couldn't sign me off for the checkride, and I knew I was out of money and wouldn't get it done for a while. So I was pretty bummed. I haven't flown since then.
Seemed to me like the main problem was rushing the recovery. But, like you said the nose up trim probably rushed it for you. My CFI has me pause for maybe a second after reducing the angle and before adding power. With a little more time you might have noticed and countered the trim pressure before it was out of hand.
That's a very good point, I didn't think of that!