OK, I've read all the posts here and now for something completely different.
You are wrapped around the axle, stressing on a test of your ability to fly a plane safely. Let's just forget that. You have a passing grade from before, and with the correct amount of prep, I'll bet you pass again, so lets set that aside.
Moving on to the real world, you can fly a plane! By yourself, land it and walk away no worse for wear! The CFI considers you a safe operator of the aircraft, and has given you your leave to fly by yourself to practice your skills. This is no small, or ignominious feat. Far fewer than 1/10 of 1% of the world's population can do what you do. Relish this. The fact that you will someday have your license and fly without much restriction is something you can look forward to given all you've spent and worked for.
Tests are a bridge on the road of life. You'll get across this one, and the nirvana on the other side, whether you use it everyday, or just a few times per year is your guiding light. It's not a destination, but a journey, and you have to cross the bridge. Every other pilot in the sky has crossed the bridge and you will do it too.
Ultimately, the exams are not a measure of your test taking, but they are set up to insure that you are a safe operator. That's all they want. You don't have to be the best pilot who ever took to the sky, you just need to be safe. And I'll tell you what, based on your CFI giving you free reign to solo when and where you like he knows you are safe, and that is all this is about.
Relax, have a glass of pinot, take a warm bath, get away from it for a while. Maybe a few days, maybe a week, or even a month or so. Wait until that tug of flight calls on you again, refreshed and with that spark you started with long ago. You will get through it, and you'll be better for the pain on your journey.